Autumn is one of those times of the year that seems to bring on deep reflection. Maybe it’s the leaf-musty slightly damp weather that holds something of both warmth and sadness. A wistfulness intrinsically woven through the mist that loops its magic fingers into the sleepy world.
I’m not sure why how this question came to me… I think it was a combination of a song lyric that I had just heard… something about being near the end… I think the lyric went; this is where we start again. But my wandering thoughts, following the random nature of the autumn mist- took their own turn. If this is the end… or near the end… was it worth it? That was a thought-stopping question, for me. I don’t know. while Recovering from bubonic-flu plague, is probably not the best time to contemplate deep-meaning questions…. but there it was…. Continue reading
I was just out grazing my goats- which I do on an almost daily basis. This gives them some free-range time. I notice during the summer, they are very inclined to hang out in an area, or tend toward the shady areas as soon as they have eaten enough to be moderately full. I say moderately, because anyone who owns goats will agree– completely full is a rarity for a goat:)
Anyway- it is getting cooler now…. and they tend to move around more. Goats, like deer have a rutting season. I only have 5 does ( girls) right now– so I don’t think the change can be attributed to the friskiness of social interaction and the boys “bad influence.”
What I have noticed the last few days, is that they keep ending up on the wrong-neighbors side of the fence. I have one neighbor who is completely open and inviting as to letting the goats graze on their field. The other neighbor, I term the black hole of hell and death… despises the goats and has been excessively ( and not grammatically correct) in threats and displeasure. So, what does this have to do with us, and how we make decisions…? Continue reading
I was following a discussion thread the other day. I forget now, what the original topic was about- that happens, when discussion threads take on a life and energy of their own. But there was one point, one response in this exchange that caught my attention, and I felt drawn to elaborate on it. Someone said it was about learning to love the unlovable.
On first read, it sounds great, its catchy it’s profound..It probably ties into the core teachings in the Andean cosmology that caused the term, the phrase and concept to stand out. In the Andean teachings.., there aren’t “good” and “bad.” in this same vein then… there isn’t that distinction between lovable, and unlovable. It is all about our relationship to something. Continue reading
I was just following another blog post that was about how people receive advice from their partners.. and how well that works out…. what an awesome and interesting topic to delve into.. As a spiritual-medicine person, I think my way of addressing the topic is a little different than most “coaches” … and that’s great! It helps soo much when we look at things differently, consider an object from a different vantage point. in fact, during my training, i remember being taught to stand on something very tall/high distant…and examine my nature meditation.. I was also taught to get down on my hands and knees and look at the same thing right up close… You only have to do that a few times to see how much we can change, by changing the lens…
but back to advice and partnerships… Continue reading
gentle trust and delicacy. curiosity and wonder
I just read a post- what is the one thing, moment.. that you will never forget. Do you remember any life-altering points you can look back to, either momentous, or maybe seemingly tiny ( at the time)? I probably have a few, but the one that came to mind is the time when I was about 17, in boarding-school/camp. I always wanted to work with horses, loved horses, related better to horses and animals than I ever had to people. It was my niche, where I felt understood, accepted and belonging. But I struggled with my parents refusal to support who I was, and what i wanted to do with my life. My then mentor and hero, Ehren, whispered words that would change my life, or at least if not change it… changed my perspective. She said, with compassion and not any sense of goading: You don’t need your parent’s permission to do what you want with your life.” That was a novel, and freeing, concept.
I had spent so much of my life, in pain and sadness and frustration. I hoped every day, that my parents would wake up and see me for who I was. NOT the champion swimmer, or the merit-scholar/ honour student. BE like someone else, was the daily chanted mantra. Along with that, was the echo of disappointment and rejection that reverberated through my life. My life was the daily war of attrition between hope and despair. Hope that the world would just stop pummeling me with expectations, and despair that I could ever BE what that upscale preppy world of affluence and ambition dictated as karma/destiny. Continue reading
In talking about the importance of the lower chakras, the discussions delved into both cultural stereotypes of language and perception, as well as encompassing the whole re holistic and energetic. I heard from a lot of healers who were surprised at their own Aha’s. Many people commented that they thought they were incorporating the whole-body approach. Many others also noted their own realizations regarding their own previously unconscious biases toward “upper”.. . Often the biases are not outright articulated…. But bias can take the form of where we put our attention, our energy… our focus.
In the discussions, I noted that maybe it was time to take the 30 day challenge. I asked who else was interested in joining this. Several people responded enthusiastically.
In the writing of that article and the week-long discussions that fo0llowed, I have been giving a lot more thought an consideration of bringing the energy down into the physical. I actually want to elaborate on that. By thought, I do not mean reflection or meditation or intellectual-thought. This past week, I have been more aware of things I do, and bringing conscious attention to accessing, working with and utilizing the lower three chakras- the physical-level/oriented centers.
So here are a few exercises I have been doing…feel free to try them and see if they work-help-etc.. Continue reading
I was just out grazing my goats… a neighbor is very generous in saying its fine for the goats to graze in his open field. The dual benefit-drawback.. is that I need to stay somewhat in attendance while they are grazing. I can usually work a horse or teach a riding lesson, and keep them in sight. But there are times when the benefit aspect is just sitting out or laying out in the grass– constructively doing nothing. Pretty sweet deal:)
This morning while I was out in the field, stretched out in that perfect spot between sun and flickering shade… I spent a while grounding and meditating– by which I mean a relaxed flow of thoughts, that were coherent and interesting. I had a few mini aha’s and insights… Continue reading
a gorgeous double-rainbow that demonstrates parallel levels reflecting the same light
I’ve been coming across a lot of things lately about connected-ness. A lot of spiritual based “messages” to remind us how much we are intricately connected, to our higher Selves, to our angels, to God.. to the Universe around us. All of these messages, from different denominational directions: all worded slightly different, as befits the paradigm in which it rests. But all sharing a very identical message. Everything is connected. That means each of us. No one is, nor can be.. ever be… alone or dis-connected.
I was just discussing the other day.. seeing and understanding the bigger picture.. the web, the connections of interplay.. I would take the process one step further — as with quantum physics and string theory/ M theory etc… All levels are reflections of shared dynamics. SO, as much as it is important for us to understand the heirarchy of connection.. i think it is also essential to understand the role of connection across space. Literally. Physical actions, choices and awarenesses that play out every day. It is all but pointless to grasp a spiritual truth, if we cannot embody and “translate” that into daily action and activity. Continue reading
Izzie. no the mouse cannot stay over for dinner!
Well, this has been a tumultuous weekend. And after a hectic week of a lot of hucha ( heavy energy) flying around.. I decided to do a ceremonial clearing fire. It went well, burned hot as hell, no pun intended.. it was what I termed a FU fire, as I wanted to put the weeks aggravations into the flames. Well, that almost bit me in the ass. Falling out w/ a good friend and my cat went AWOL. which added fuel to the week’s distress. NOT the outcome I had been hoping for.
I spent a very quiet day, trying to re-calibrate- to about 9 episodes of Doctor Who ( I do love cable on demand:). Finally, by evening, I was able to kick myself into gear and go do barn chores before bringing horses and goats in for the night At that point, the dust must have settled out.. Izzie showed back up out of the blue.While I was rounding up the goats, which is something like being a goalie in a game of soccer where all the players are on both speed and steroids:). I thought i heard a meow. I called out, but no response- Izzie often “answers” me. But, when i came back to the house, she’s just sprawled out on the kitchen floor and is now near my feet, looking a bit tired but content. I don’t know if I feel better, because the cat is back.. or if the cat is back.. because i am “better.”.. don’t really care.. Izzie is a kind of ward– even if she doesn’t seem to catch the mice, and worse– will often bring some IN, as playmates:) Continue reading
What’s a possum between friends? ( pic from freedigitalphotos.net)
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I have been surprised, but encouraged at the responses from other healers and their identical struggle and juggling act around their friendships outside of fellow healer’s. Personally, I LIKE and almost prefer my non-healer friends. I have other interests in my life, and I don’t want to live in my healers-hat all the time… yes it is what I do, and what/who i am. But it isn’t what I want to be/ do all the time. I also like science fiction, and animals, and hiking– things that do not require those same areas of brain and thinking:)
But often, in those friendships.. people are slightly less than comfortable. Many times, they find themselves sharing more than they might with anyone else.. Often, I hear things like.. How did you know that? or, whoa, you know me too well.. or a look or a response.. where I have ” noticed” something others thought was either well-guarded.. or.. didn’t realise was there.. those… which are in the open.. are a little easier to address.. which, while it sucks.. gee- whoops, sorry.. I just thought the possum on your head looked hungry… I didn’t realise no one ( you?) knew you had a possum on your head.. sort of thing.. The other thing I tend to trip over.. is the people who are not as conscious.. esp true, when being around medicine people.. there are changes in their lives, their actions, their energy… we upset the apple carts- just by the nature of who we are.. what we do– we carry energy differently, and energy around us responds, like waking up, or activating.. healers don’t necessarily DO anything.. aside from occasionally asking if the possum could have a cookie.. Continue reading