Izzie. no the mouse cannot stay over for dinner!
Well, this has been a tumultuous weekend. And after a hectic week of a lot of hucha ( heavy energy) flying around.. I decided to do a ceremonial clearing fire. It went well, burned hot as hell, no pun intended.. it was what I termed a FU fire, as I wanted to put the weeks aggravations into the flames. Well, that almost bit me in the ass. Falling out w/ a good friend and my cat went AWOL. which added fuel to the week’s distress. NOT the outcome I had been hoping for.
I spent a very quiet day, trying to re-calibrate- to about 9 episodes of Doctor Who ( I do love cable on demand:). Finally, by evening, I was able to kick myself into gear and go do barn chores before bringing horses and goats in for the night At that point, the dust must have settled out.. Izzie showed back up out of the blue.While I was rounding up the goats, which is something like being a goalie in a game of soccer where all the players are on both speed and steroids:). I thought i heard a meow. I called out, but no response- Izzie often “answers” me. But, when i came back to the house, she’s just sprawled out on the kitchen floor and is now near my feet, looking a bit tired but content. I don’t know if I feel better, because the cat is back.. or if the cat is back.. because i am “better.”.. don’t really care.. Izzie is a kind of ward– even if she doesn’t seem to catch the mice, and worse– will often bring some IN, as playmates:) Continue reading
What’s a possum between friends? ( pic from freedigitalphotos.net)
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I have been surprised, but encouraged at the responses from other healers and their identical struggle and juggling act around their friendships outside of fellow healer’s. Personally, I LIKE and almost prefer my non-healer friends. I have other interests in my life, and I don’t want to live in my healers-hat all the time… yes it is what I do, and what/who i am. But it isn’t what I want to be/ do all the time. I also like science fiction, and animals, and hiking– things that do not require those same areas of brain and thinking:)
But often, in those friendships.. people are slightly less than comfortable. Many times, they find themselves sharing more than they might with anyone else.. Often, I hear things like.. How did you know that? or, whoa, you know me too well.. or a look or a response.. where I have ” noticed” something others thought was either well-guarded.. or.. didn’t realise was there.. those… which are in the open.. are a little easier to address.. which, while it sucks.. gee- whoops, sorry.. I just thought the possum on your head looked hungry… I didn’t realise no one ( you?) knew you had a possum on your head.. sort of thing.. The other thing I tend to trip over.. is the people who are not as conscious.. esp true, when being around medicine people.. there are changes in their lives, their actions, their energy… we upset the apple carts- just by the nature of who we are.. what we do– we carry energy differently, and energy around us responds, like waking up, or activating.. healers don’t necessarily DO anything.. aside from occasionally asking if the possum could have a cookie.. Continue reading
I was just having an ongoing discussion about compassion and how we process what we experience.. someone made a very good distinction and reminder, about the importance in differentiating between the person, and the action.. that is ALWAYS a huge factor.. because we may be the sum of our actions.. but we are not every individual action.. I imagine this is particularly true when external influences impact the choices and actions we make in any given moment.
As a healer.. I am often caught between not-liking what I see people around me doing.. sometimes this is because it’s a personal act that affects me.. an offhand comment.. being mis-treated, poorly treated.. treated without good integrity etc..Healers often see too much, too clearly.. the many things, invisible to the rest of the waking/ walking world.. things which might not be apparent.. but whose impacts are very profoundly felt: in the choices and actions people make…
So, back to differentiating between the person, and the action..
How does one differentiate enough to maintain healthy personal boundaries? Continue reading
EO and Sam, both very happy after a great lesson!
This is the time of year when the Spring season of horse racing kicks into gear- and everyone becomes interested in this years crop of horses. No one wonders about last years crop of horses.. the failed horses.. and the horses that run hard, every week to earn their oats, for 4-6 years. These creatures, do not generally live a glamourous life. Until recently, many of them ended their noble existence in the less than glamourous slaughter-house.
More recently, people are beginning to take responsibility for the after-care of the horses, whose hard work we feast upon, as a sport. Occasionally, news comes in about some OTTB’s post-racing success as a competition horse. I have had almost exclusively OTTBs in my small barn in my 30something years of riding. My first horse was an OTTB, and I have been in love with them ever since. There is a noble wise and ancient soul behind the depths of those deep black eyes. When treated well, and understood– simply put.. there-is-no-better-horse.
I use my horses as lesson horses.. and I think one students final reflection piece for the semester illustrates far better than anything I could say- about the range and depth theses horses possess.
Horseback riding this semester has taught me many important lessons which I will carry with me and build upon as I move forward into that big, scary world after graduation.
First of all, I’ve learned to connect with horses and have completely overcome my initial idea of them as being a bit scary and unpredictable. My time with EO, Jazz, and Bailey has proven to me that all you have to do is put in time and be receptive, and you will be able to better understand their unique personalities, quirks, and emotions. With these three special horses, I have been surprised to find that once you get to know them and understand their behaviors in light of their past experiences, they are probably way more predictable than most people, who tend to be ruled more by their heads and complicated sets of incentives. I think this holds true with pretty much all animals. They are honest and genuine and for the most part, what you see is what you get. Ultimately, I am so surprised about the relationships I feel I have developed with these horses in such a short period of time. I feel that I have become much for receptive to their moods and desires while riding, and this is so impressive considering that I came quite nervous and having no experience with horses. Continue reading
Ch. Harrowby Gamekeeper (1979?)
I can remember looking back at various pet incidences: when they died, when to make that crucial decision about ending their lives, and mourning those losses.. and the notion of second-guessing.. which is a hot button topic for me right now.. on other subjects…Was it the right thing.. was the pet suffering? Was he/ she ready to go? Was there anything else I could have done? What if I had known sooner…? Continue reading
I Had an interesting discussion about dualties and the nature of love-fear, in a dualistic universe: the initial premise was that: Everything is Love, or its absence: fear. If you are holding Love, you cannot hold or come from a place of Fear. And if you are in a place of Fear, you cannot come from a place of Love. Of course, now this has me curious.. is it possible to hold both? Maybe there is a place of super-position — where it is possible to maintain two points of position simultaneously? or perhaps there is gradation on a scale between them in which both are always held in varying degrees…?
I can think of points/ places where I have held absolute love for someone, while at the same time feeling overwhelmed by the “fear” aspect of anger, betrayal, resentment.. So, Are fear and love actually separate things- where it is possible to hold them both at the same time? I have held total compassion for a person when they have caused incredible pain and hurt- understanding a bigger picture. this is particularly true as a healer– who might experience upset at a personal level ( fear-pain).. while understanding and holding love and compassion at the same time ( it’s a slippery slope, and often.. it sucks, as personal-mundane life happens, and holding professional-perspectives over emotional instances:)… much the way a parent might.. if their child breaks the gift from their grandparent that they held very close to their heart, cherishing a connection that cannot be re-created.. are they not holding both of those aspects simultaneously…? Continue reading
I was just reading an interesting article about some of the physical benefits, or rather physiological benefits of grounding. It talked about the importance and benefits of going barefoot. Also, I remember in my herbal training, we talked a good bit about how the feet absorb minerals from the ground and grass. That’s a pretty cool idea and absolutely makes evolutionary- biological good sense.
Another benefit to walking barefoot is also physiological. Or perhaps anatomical? When we walk over uneven ground, especially if we are barefoot.. we use our muscles and our bodies very differently. Walking over uneven ground, and walking barefoot over natural ( not man-made/ paved) surfaces allows us to use more of our muscles, and stresses the feet and joints less. I played around with this, shifting back and forth between the sidewalk, and the grass next to it. I definitely sensed the distinction. Of course, it probably looked a bit silly, but I was pretty immersed in the changes in sensory information. Walking over the grass also felt more relaxing, satisfying, in some way…have you tried it? You might be surprised… Continue reading
Wookie: 17.2 OTTB slaughter rescue
I recently came across a question on one of my threads about whether putting their dog down was the right decision. I couldn’t answer the question, as I really didn’t have enough information. But the question raised a lot of important issues, worth discussion
What was the problem with the dog? what was the disease? And what is the treatment.. is this a permanent condition? why wasn’t it being resolved? Very often the approaches of western medicine, including veterinary medicine- do not look at the whole system.. do not take into account, or ask the question: how do we help the body heal and return to its optimal function?without knowing this- making a life-determining decision wouldn’t be optimal. On the spiritual- moral note.. there are no right/wrong answers. There are no answers, only choices.
Only the person making the choice, can know if it is the right choice. No one else, should ever take choice out of a persons hands. What anyone, even a medical practitioner should be doing, is adequately arming and informing a person so that they can make the best wise choice for themselves and all concerned. They won’t be the ones second guessing choices for years afterwards, or crying for the loss… will they? Continue reading
I hope our chat was beneficial…
a lot of information got downloaded there..
be kind/ patient with yourself.. as this was, essentially, a form of energetic healing/work…
In the desert, when there is no one to give you your name- you find your true name.
Maybe on your trip to the desert.. put it out there that you are looking for insight/ clarity.. let this be your mini- spirit quest. The area you are headed is generally a spiritual kind of place, and particularly the New Mexico region. I’m not a desert person.. but I can appreciate that its a transformative place:)
Think of this is mediation, between what you want/ what you need.. and what the universe has in mind/ store for how you fit into its bigger plans/fabric.
And remember, ask with some degree of specificity. asking for “help”, could mean you find a 5.00 bill on the sidewalk.. or someone opens a door for you on the way into a store… “help” is a very vague/generic concept.. the universe doesn’t intuit-guess well… it isn’t a mind-reader that way.. and/ or.. there are constraints.. ask and ye shall receive…
BUT- one caveat…. Continue reading
Milo and Grettal- 2 hours old
Anyone who watches television, knows how much the media – esp in this country– pushes such a deep fear factor into everything.. fear of “other” fear of failure.. fear of ridicule.. masked and couched in so many subtle ways.. but it still, most definitely pushes fear as a primary marketing and social message. totally sucks.. but I think of it as a crash course in evolution. Maybe this is a purge, an intense presentation that represents over a thousand years of intense religious-based fear mongering.. Hopefully one day, like an addict, people will start hitting the bottom and choose something else.. Maybe people need to go down that rabbit hole, in order to be certain there is nothing down there except more hole, and an eventual bottom… At which point- they will begin to climb back out. The interesting thing about the fear-hole.. no matter how far down, or how long one spends digging that tunnel… the way back out is always instant. Just letting go of fear, anger, envy, and negative emotions.. and the hole is gone. Poof! I suppose this could be a sort of quantum physics wormhole..??
And yes, animals do remain more true to their natures… Continue reading